What if… this is as good as it gets?
Stop and think. I mean really think. We all have our own state of existence and sometimes it is really hard to stay in the moment and not hope for what is ahead. But what if “This” (picture me waving my arm around where you are) is as good as it gets? Would you be okay with that? Are you grateful for right now? I’ve begun to wonder if I am stuck because of me not being grateful enough. I KNOW that I am definitely in a learning place and just may be not getting it! Not in the sense of really bad things happening. I mean we can take responsiblity for some of it. But some is just life and the deck we draw from.
I am talking about that “happy place” I can’t seem to find or at least stay there and I am wondering why. And… if this (me again waving around) is as good as it gets, would that be okay? I know I need to be grateful… that these someday, will be the good old days… but is there something wrong in hoping for something different? Always striving for a little more? Not necesarrily just ”stuff” but more happiness. Ya know?
I won’t admit that I watch those poor “Housewives” on the different corners of our continent.( At least not regularly.) But however scripted it may be, I have to admit that sometimes I find myself mesmorized by their drama. I think WHO SAYS THAT? Or screams like that or fights like that? When they’ve gotta have cameras in their faces. it makes me feel better about my own life and the lack of drama.
Though, just recently my friend of over a half a century and I had a silly misunderstanding. At first I felt time and distance would help it blow over. But never really ever having any kind of “anything negative” with her in our adulthood, the more time that went by, the more apparent it became that it would take more than an email to blow this one over. Yesterday we had an almost two hour conversation. We laughed and got serious and then honest and then laughed again. It felt as if a wall of bricks had dropped off of me afterwards. I felt light and ready to do the Hokey Pokey… just getting ready to put my left foot in…..
when bamm!! Some other drama with a completely different person in my life slammed into me.
I felt ready to throw my hands up and give up. Or at least to sign on to some reality show because my drama lately is just as worthy as some of the best episodes of the Housewives anywhere!
But really have you ever felt like that? Sooo happy and ready to celebrate and then Wham! You are thinking… ”What Next?! Can’t I at least enjoy the moment before you pull me down into the sludge again???? So I have decided to not be a victim!!!!!!!! In fact I refuse to be! You have heard the saying… “Don’t kick em when they’re down” Well, I am never going to be down again. Sooo just try to kick me flying in the sky! Ha! Okaaay… I know… one extreme to another… But literally,.. I intend to recognize the things that I can control and control them better. To not feed into the negative. To keep my mouth shut when at all possible. Wow I made that sound difficult didn’t I? Well, you know… sometimes it has been for me. But no more. I will lead by example. The next time I feel like being negative. I am going to march the other way!
Because This is not as good as it gets! And it’s not about the Hokey Pokey. It’s about being willing to shake it all about!
So you have caught me in a silly kind of nonsensey type of mood so don’t expect anything profound… just wanted to hang out with ya and have a layback blowing bubbles connection!
My mind is filled with butterlies
Wait! I’m scared of bugs.
My heart holds forgiveness
while my head still holds a grudge.
I do the hokey pokey
and turn myself around
I paint on silly smiles
over stitched on frowns
Life is filled with chances
and lots of give and take
Sometimes it’s just the small things
And the choices we all make
to know when to just stop talking
so we can hear what others have to say
to learn to step aside
when pride gets in the way!
to stop when the sidewalk ends
and learn to go around
to only kick me when I’m up
and never when I’m down!