Happy New Year!
I must apologize for being away for so long. Rather than writing a
“Gone Fishing” or “On Vacation” post to at least let you know I wasn’t here… I kept thinking I’d be back sooner than I was… and figured that you’d figure out that I was not here all on your own! ;)
I mean, I never even wished you guys Merry Christmas! I really can’t believe that I haven’t been here for almost a month. I never even thought that it was possible for me to stay away this long! Though I have kept up with some of the posts you guys have posted… I really wasn’t that great at doing that either!
But… I am back! And So now… what to say? I have to admit that I almost forgot how to post… it took me a few tries before I found the NEW POST key! Arghh… getting old sucks! You forget those familiar places and how to do things…. This has been my first REAL vacation in over eight years! And it has been nice not having to go to work everyday…. But I did miss my friends there and so I do look forward to seeing them!
Sooo now as I dust off the old keys I wonder… what to write…. besides my first poem of 2014 (at the end) I wanted to make a different kind of comeback for this one post… not just numbering off all of my new year’s resolutions… though I do have em….
To tell you how much I appreciate all of you guys for reading and following me. I truly feel as if I have made some special friends here and have grown to love you all. Rather than write my ususal Happy New Year Post (though I do wish you all an amazing one!) I wanted to come back in a way that reflects what I’ve learned this past year. My mother in law (the Psychologist by profession) just shared with me that we never stop learning. And our new knowledge is like tiny drops of water.
As the master of metaphors I loved that one! And may all of our cups spill over in the coming year!
But as we shared… the one thing that I think stood out more than anything was the gift she gave me when she told me…”You are not crazy Diane.” Okay, so by now you may be saying… “She HAS to say that Diane, she is your mother in law!” But seriously, sometimes I do feel a bit crazy or at least as a writer, I drive myself crazy over thinking stuff.
But I feel that by her saying that to me… a light bulb kind of clicked on, almost as if I have kind of been given permission to feel the way I feel about things. Disappointed, frustrated, sad, confused… all are okay and probably pretty relevant for what happened to make me feel the way I did in the different circumstances that come to mind, and that I am writing about… But I guess in the end, it is how we react to it all. By now we have heard it said in so many amazing ways: … It is not what is happening to us but our attitude in how we handle it.
This year I know now… that being right is not as important as being kind. And that letting things go may be healthier for me in the end than shoving my rights to be right down the other person’s metaphorical throat. I have learned that people surprise you in both good and bad ways.
I have learned that money can make people feel and do things that are despicable and generous all in your own family. And that your own children can disappoint you and make you proud on so many different levels but a parent’s love never changes. At least in my heart I know that to be true. And that babies can take everything negative and turn it all into joy just like magic!
I have learned that listening more than talking will always get you much further on the path of understanding and that being slow to say what you want to say is just about as important as being slow to react to anger. Just as I have learned that saying less is just an overall better choice all around. I have learned that life will throw you all kinds of curve balls but that faith is like a seasoned mit, the leather gets worn in the right places and we learn to catch the foul balls with ease as well as some great home run catches!
I guess in the end, I have learned that I can’t do it alone. That I need to let go and to give God the wheel. For without Him steering it is like sliding on ice.
Happy New Year my friends! May this NEW year be filled with kindness and quiet reflections, home runs and peaceful and meaningful talks filled with more listening and a safe trip through the next year with God’s hands always on the wheel!
Giving Back The Wheel
Lord, thank you for the year behind me and the things that I have learned,
for the lessons you have taught me where my path took a different turn.
Thank you for staying by me, when I forgot to invite you along,
and for loving me during the times where I know that I was wrong.
This year I know is no different, and it is just another day…
But, we somehow all feel as if we can just blot last year away…
An opportunity of fresh starts and a way to begin again,
erasing last years mistakes, like a story that has reached the end.
We turn the calendar’s page and embrace the new hope we all feel
as we metaphorically step aside, and give you back the wheel!
Happy New Year to all of my special friends that find themselves here today! May this be a year of allowing God to steer your path!