It really is easier
to make it all someone else’s fault.
To be so indignant and load the blame somewhere else.
To get lost in the anger and pain and to go back and forth
never quite figuring any of it out.
I just can’t understand why it is so hard to just forget…
and get caught up in not knowing where to go with all these feelings.
I have filled my pages with words that sit in archives
not knowing where they belong.
Just storing them and forgetting that they are there
and then re-finding them again.
But when I started this thought and re-found it…
It just was too good to not finish it…
I have been told by someone I care about…
who is the source of a lot of my pain
that they are falling back on God’s grace.
And I think…
I give up.
I really need to just let go…
For who am I?
I mean really, who am I…
to stand in the way of anyone else’s grace?