I have been kind of down on myself lately, I have made some pretty bad mistakes in my life and some of my choices have not been the best. I think that I have always felt that one of my biggest failures has been my divorce. Even though I understand that I probably made the right decision in the long run, and I know that I am forgiven… I still have a hard time getting over the guilt of it… Though as the years go by, I have come to terms with things and have since moved on~ to make sure that I don’t just focus on my divorce, I have really taken care of that one beautifully, I mean why just stop at divorce when I can become a “STAR” in my own series of even worse failures? At least I am consistent! And have made a few whopper sized ones lately.
I have been like a rebellious kid, looking at my actions from every other point of view I can imagine. I’ve tried not to care, I;ve even tried to say that my failures are God’s will. But really, who am I kidding?
Sooo, I know that I am forgiven and I know all about laying it at the cross but I really have been wondering what God genuinely thinks of me as I fail daily to keep all my promises to me, let alone HIM! I would love it if we could take a walk like in the book The Shack and have a heart to heart. I wish He could gently shake me into understanding everything. But I continue to loathe myself ~And just about when I have convinced myself that I will never be worthy…. I open up an email from a friend… the kind that I usually click on, skim through and delete but right about the time, I was feeling seriously unworthy…. with one foot in barely a prayer but making an effort… and the other foot in the other door, checking my e-mail, I read this…..
Noah was a drunk, Abraham was too old, Isaac was a daydreamer, Jacob was a liar, Leah was ugly, Joseph was abused, Moses stuttered, Samson was a womanizer, Rahab was a prostitute, Jeremiah and Timothy were too young, David had an affair and was a murderer, Elijah was suicidal, Isaiah preached naked, Jonah ran from God, Naomi was a widow, John the Baptist ate bugs, Peter denied Christ, The Disciples fell asleep while praying, Martha was a worrier, The Samaratian woman was divorced more than once, Zaccheus was too small, Paul was too religious, Timothy
It ended with a quippy little message… So….no more excuses about your potential…. God can use you too… just the way you are!
It made me think….
He really does want us. He even wants me. I think that I have finally realized… It doesn’t matter who we are, or what we have done… He genuinely wants us. But He won’t bang down our door or force us into His flock… Though, He will keep reminding us that His arms are open and even continue to nudge us gently to follow Him…like a lost little lamb…
just as I am…He is carrying us like a lost little part of the flock that has wandered off…the prodigal son… He has sent us message after message that we are all worth it… even me.
15 thoughts on “Even Me”
When you judge yourself as we all must from time to time, try to remember one thing: You cannot step outside yourself and look at yourself as you see others. If you could you might see how terrible or remarkably good you are in comparison to other people. You cannot do that, you cannot fairly judge yourself, and judging is not the business you are in. Judging is for Someone else to do as He so chooses. Do your job the best you can and let others do theirs.
Some of us put on a brave front, a competent front, a fun front, but we are all scared sometimes, we regret what we have done sometimes, we fail to live up to the meekest of standards sometimes. But the grass is greener, other people seem to be coping better, everyone else seems to be doing just fine.
The human condition is sometimes grand and at other times full of faltering and guilt. I’m sorry but you are no better than human. I wouldn’t like you if you were.
Had a long few days… haven’t been on line much. Came home after work and pretty much just fell asleep…Now rushing off to work… but needed to jump on here and check my mail. Good advice! Thanks!
Wonderful post.So nice to read such funny thing.Thank you for visiting my site.Blessings and happiness.jalal
Thank you also for taking the time to stop by here!
Love when He breaks thru our darkness! Great post…and btw, Moses stuttered AND had an anger management problem. What a show that must’ve created!!
God has the best sense of humor ever!
omg…that is just beautiful! I loved this.
AHHHH THANK YOU! That means so much!
Saw it just when I needed to see it…. Amazing how I saw this a while back and it failed to register! LOL
Wayne, thank you so much!!!! That means a lot! I love it when God uses our stuff (junk in our own lives) to touch hearts! When it is my stuff… from my words… it totally inspires me!!! You are my gift!
Love this.. I was just having this convo tonight.. thanks for posting this..
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Reblogged this on Lyn Leahz and commented:
Hilarious post that made me laugh, yet it was so true! Read it for yourself and see!
Lyn, what a compliment thank you for reblogging me !!! And I KNOOOW so funny huh? HE must have put all those guys in His word to show us no one is ever going to be perfect enough and yet HE will use us all!
Love this! Hilarious! It is sooooo true..but soooo funny! Made me laugh!